I used this xanga from October 2008-March 2009. I have enjoyed having a xanga but there were some dissapointments for it which made me decide to leave. I also wanted to try out other websites. Xanga is definitely better than blogger. Im going to try out MindSay and if MindSay sucks too, then Livejournal, and if not livejournal Xanga again.

I enjoyed getting to observe other people's thoughts, and writing styles. I liked seeing people reach out to each other. I reached out to others and met a lot of people on xanaga, but it seems like Ill maintain longer connections with just one person. I am dissapointed by that and how others dont seem to care. Maybe it was my url "Unknown_cellars" or having no default picture of a while, or  random layout. Anyways, I still got to engage enough with others.

I used this website as a way to keep track of my days because living is more satisfying when you are keeping track whats going on. I wanted it to organize my mind and take the most out of each day and learn that skill and it has served its purpose.

I still didnt reread all of my xanga entries, and will get to do that in about a week. I do know my writing evolved. For writing, I want to be less scattered, not be too rhetorical or show hype for what might happen next and then turn out to not happen. I also sometimes wrote too hastily.I did have good writing. I think I have much more originality and substance than many others who have xanga. I experimented a lot with xanga. I am better now at recalling events and reflecting on each day. This was good practice for writing. It made me feel more whole. It helped me have less clutter in life. I know my tastes and preferences more. My memory drive is stronger. It saved my life during a vicious time. I have a better idea for what I should use my writing for.

People need to try to communicate effectively more often and actually use their brains. I will not let myself be brought down by losers who dont know how to life and be with others, and the more and more people who live knowing what the world and society needs, the better.

At this point, I just want to be here for another month. I want to finish at least 40 things on my huge to do list, which mostly can be done being at home or at an internet cafe.  I cant believe how messed up things got here but the only thing to do is to move on and in some ways this bump in my life has been good because I know what direction I want to take. There is a lot that has improved.

I want to go to an independent living program, preferrably away from the city. within a month. I hope I can geographically pick the location. I have to get ready for going to one of those places. Ill, probably be there for at least 4 months. I never want to show myself around these parts again and be reminded of the undesirable aspects of my past. This has been a good time to remember everything good about my past but not be in the srrroundings of my past ever again. Things wouldnt have gotten this complicated if I moved as recently as October.

I still feel a bit ambivalent about this decsion. I would have had 3 concerts to go to (Bloc Party, Mogwai, and the Faint) I would have Feng Shui classes to take and all of these places below to go to:

 Caffe Notte

Muddy Cup in Staten Island

The Coffee Pot

1 Part of Soul Meets Body by Death Cab for Cutie

"My premonition will guide me

Pulses that don't need to be explained but followed without questioning

For now, its a pulse in the way

I still know what Im getting myself into

All the risks and preoccupations

The thrill is satisfying"

(I cant seem to upload any recent pictures of me onto my profile pictures>.<)

Peace, Everyone (For once saying peace does not sound cliche or tacky)